im starting to realize i wanna die everyday more and more . the more the dyas past the sadder i really am. i dont care about life anymore. about anyone its just a fake personality i put on at skool i hate everything. i hate my life. i myself. i wanna OD. I WANNA DIE. I HATE LIFE ITS FUCKING DISGUSTING. I WAS SO MUCH HAPPIER FUCKED UP. ever since i stopped i hate my life more and more. fuck iam a true junkie at heart, even though i stopped i feel horrible like lifes not wortth it there nothing worth living for. kc gone. im so alone. i feel the only thing that would make me happy is cocaine. i want it do bad, i need it becuase im sad and ill always be sad. the saddest thing is im not a baser, i 'm just a sad lil bitch who needs the drugs to be happy. andi have no choice but do them, i know ill go back because im weak, but id like to happy once just once without the need of killing my brain cells. and whats even better ive been diagnosed with boderline peronality disorder. awesome. aint that a fucking catch. im like mentallly fucked up a junkie fucked up bitch. I HATE DRUGS. ITS FUCKED UP MY LIFE. | 
